I’ve been a Christian since I was four years old. I surrendered my life to God without any training and without real knowledge of what I was supposed to do. I certainly didn’t know about evil or sin or needing a savior. My heart was good although probably selfish. I was responding to something I felt and I was sure it was God. Life has changed over the years and I have tried on my own to save myself from many situations and bad decisions. I joined churches, I was baptized, I served on committees, taught Sunday school, attended Bible studies, taught Bible studies, volunteered, served the homeless and the needy, tithed, had personal devotions and read my Bible and yet….

And yet, I didn’t really understand what the Christian Life was about.

I didn’t feel the victory. I didn’t feel the love. I had to admit I didn’t trust God. I believed He is good. I prayed to Him especially when I was worried or needing help. I know He protected me many times because like I said, I made a lot of bad choices and decisions. I’ve been searching for something or Someone I’ve always been sure existed.

God woos us from birth. He longs to have a relationship with us. He speaks to us, as John Eldredge says in his book, “The Divine Romance,”  through our experiences. God has been wooing me and I have been searching for Him or at least a better understanding of Him. I wanted to know and believe He is everything the Bible says and as many Christian authors have verified.

Some sixty years later I have surrendered to the wooing of my soul. I’ve stopped running. I laid down my pride and the idea I had that I knew more about how to do my life than the Creator of my soul. I look around and I see a lot of brokenness in the world and people that are broken in so many ways it hurts to take an honest look and see.

God never gave up on me and my pride. He has never stopped wooing me and trying to answer my searching heart. It wasn’t Him that was confusing, it was me. I was making it far too hard. Like many, I thought it depended on me. It doesn’t. This is my blog about learning to live in the Kingdom of God while living in the world. I think it is possible, but it will take some learning, relying upon, trusting in a new life. The Bible says we are a New Creation when we are in Christ (2 Corinthians 5:17) and Christ is in us. It’s a mystery and an adventure. Jesus prayed we would be in the world, but not of the world. (John 17) We are challenged to be transformed into the image of Christ who is the fulfillment of all things. Wholeness, I believe, is found in Christ alone. Come with me and talk with me about what you have learned and what your experience is with finding God and living as a new creation in a fallen world.

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